Monday, November 25, 2019
Thursday, November 14, 2019
Dark
Fall and winter is upon us. The leaves are changing colors and falling to the ground. Many of the birds are en route to warmer climates around the globe, without me, and the squirrels are gathering food for the colder seasons.
Good morning to you all.
A couple of days ago I was at work in the breakroom, watching the Weather Channel. Now, let me say i have no control over the channels on the television. They are I guess preset because we only have a few of them and every 30-40 minutes or so, the channel changes.
The program being aired was on extreme weather or the worst tornadoes in history.
A fellow employee walked into the breakroom and looked at the television and said "WOW!"
I then proceeded to make a poorly timed comment, which I shall not repeat, and it stopped him in his tracks.
His response to me was "that's a dark statement coming from you Darryl."
Although he could not see it, but the shame and guilt of my statement made me cringe on the inside.
"I am still human."
Sadly, i had been feeling a dark cloud over me that day and into the night while at work. Immediately I asked God to forgive me and with great effort I fought this 'darkness' the rest of the night and the following morning on the way home.
Good morning to you all.
A couple of days ago I was at work in the breakroom, watching the Weather Channel. Now, let me say i have no control over the channels on the television. They are I guess preset because we only have a few of them and every 30-40 minutes or so, the channel changes.
The program being aired was on extreme weather or the worst tornadoes in history.
A fellow employee walked into the breakroom and looked at the television and said "WOW!"
I then proceeded to make a poorly timed comment, which I shall not repeat, and it stopped him in his tracks.
His response to me was "that's a dark statement coming from you Darryl."
Although he could not see it, but the shame and guilt of my statement made me cringe on the inside.
"I am still human."
Sadly, i had been feeling a dark cloud over me that day and into the night while at work. Immediately I asked God to forgive me and with great effort I fought this 'darkness' the rest of the night and the following morning on the way home.
Wednesday, July 31, 2019
Still...blogging
Good evening everyone.
It has been some time since i sat at my keyboard and banged out a blog post. I sincerely apologize.
Life seems to have gotten in the way and although i have been writing and keeping, my almost daily journal, posting has been an issue. Needless to say, i have many ideas taking shape and some even finished. All that I have left to do is polish them a little and post them.
Until i get around to doing them, I figured I would once again go through my backlog of unfinished blog posts in my blogging notebooks and on my laptop and see what i have that i could work on now
and post on my page. To my surprise there are many, at last count 64, that are in "draft mode".
So, my thinking is to peruse them and publish them. Much to my shame some go back as far as 2014.
If you have followed my blog for any any amount of time, you may be familiar with a series i started called "Still". Well, as you can see in the title of this post "Still...blogging" I have chosen that series to finish off first. Seeing as how there are only 3 more episodes and only 2 left to write and i have the notes from them, the decision was easy.
So, without further ado, and procrastination on my part, over the next few days i will publish Episodes 3.2; Episodes 3.3 and Episode 4.
Thank you for your patience and as always,
God bless.
It has been some time since i sat at my keyboard and banged out a blog post. I sincerely apologize.
Life seems to have gotten in the way and although i have been writing and keeping, my almost daily journal, posting has been an issue. Needless to say, i have many ideas taking shape and some even finished. All that I have left to do is polish them a little and post them.
Until i get around to doing them, I figured I would once again go through my backlog of unfinished blog posts in my blogging notebooks and on my laptop and see what i have that i could work on now
and post on my page. To my surprise there are many, at last count 64, that are in "draft mode".
So, my thinking is to peruse them and publish them. Much to my shame some go back as far as 2014.
If you have followed my blog for any any amount of time, you may be familiar with a series i started called "Still". Well, as you can see in the title of this post "Still...blogging" I have chosen that series to finish off first. Seeing as how there are only 3 more episodes and only 2 left to write and i have the notes from them, the decision was easy.
So, without further ado, and procrastination on my part, over the next few days i will publish Episodes 3.2; Episodes 3.3 and Episode 4.
Thank you for your patience and as always,
God bless.
Sunday, June 2, 2019
A New Day
Good evening everyone.
Yes, the "Nerd" is still blogging. Over the course of the past few months, I have been dealing some personal issues, both professionally and spiritually. With that in mind, my blogging has suffered along with many other things that i used to find joy in.
Looking back (which i have been doing too much of) has caused me to stumble and fall and have kept me from going forward. I had taken my eyes off of the cross of Calvary. Why? Simply put, known sin in my life.
During our Sunday morning service, God got a hold of me and i went to the altar and wept before Him. My life lately has been so much about me, myself and I. Literally, i have been trying to hold onto those things, self-made idols, sins and my spiritual charade. Faith in God has been replaced by faith in Darryl.
Romans 1:28 says And even as they did not like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a reprobate mind, to do those things which are not convenient.
That is what happened to me.
God in His wisdom has allowed me to wallow in my own filth. This filth has filled my thoughts and fueled my actions. Sin, has caused a separation between God and myself and the absence of His Holy Spirit within me. The peace and soundness of mind and spirit that i once enjoyed has now been replaced with darkness of soul and turmoil. I NEED God in my life. There is no better substitute.
We are fighting a battle that we cannot win, those who do not know of the saving power of the blood of Jesus that was shed for the sins of mankind over 2,000 years ago on a hill called Calvary.
But for those who know the work that was done on that same hill, on a cross, that on the surface appeared dreadful and painful, yet, was beautiful and full of hope and forgiveness, we have someone before us who has fought the battle and won. His name is Jesus.
Yes, the "Nerd" is still blogging. Over the course of the past few months, I have been dealing some personal issues, both professionally and spiritually. With that in mind, my blogging has suffered along with many other things that i used to find joy in.
Looking back (which i have been doing too much of) has caused me to stumble and fall and have kept me from going forward. I had taken my eyes off of the cross of Calvary. Why? Simply put, known sin in my life.
During our Sunday morning service, God got a hold of me and i went to the altar and wept before Him. My life lately has been so much about me, myself and I. Literally, i have been trying to hold onto those things, self-made idols, sins and my spiritual charade. Faith in God has been replaced by faith in Darryl.
Romans 1:28 says And even as they did not like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a reprobate mind, to do those things which are not convenient.
That is what happened to me.
God in His wisdom has allowed me to wallow in my own filth. This filth has filled my thoughts and fueled my actions. Sin, has caused a separation between God and myself and the absence of His Holy Spirit within me. The peace and soundness of mind and spirit that i once enjoyed has now been replaced with darkness of soul and turmoil. I NEED God in my life. There is no better substitute.
We are fighting a battle that we cannot win, those who do not know of the saving power of the blood of Jesus that was shed for the sins of mankind over 2,000 years ago on a hill called Calvary.
But for those who know the work that was done on that same hill, on a cross, that on the surface appeared dreadful and painful, yet, was beautiful and full of hope and forgiveness, we have someone before us who has fought the battle and won. His name is Jesus.
Saturday, February 2, 2019
Where does love go when it dies?
Funny title for a blog post.
You may also recognize it from the Def Leppard album Slang.
Truth be told, this is where my mind and heart is right now. Let me also add, spiritually.
A couple of days ago, I was reading from Matthew 24:12 which says (Jesus speaking) "And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold."
Looking back i can say that the love within me has started to grow cold, due to all of the ugliness of mankind around me. My heart has become cynical and judgmental of many and it has caused me to become more jaded in my dealings with others. This is definitely a side effect of my lack of dedication to guarding my relationship with God in heaven.
Here is the chorus from Def Leppard's song:
Here is the chorus from Def Leppard's song:
Every word you whisper
All the tears you hide
You die for love when it's alive
But where does love go when it dies
As much as it pains me to put these words out there for all the world to see, I cannot carry on as if nothing has happened. Many nights have come and gone and all I find is silence. Bad decision making has marked my spiritual downfall. I don't always find solace in the Bible, my prayer life has been focused on me about 90% of the time and my reaching out to others has slowed.
Going back to the afformentioned verse from Matthew, I see that having my attention on the acts of others, I allowed the enemy of my soul, Satan, to gain a foot hold in the hedge God had placed around me. The pain of separation has only increased day-by-day.
The overall theme of Matthew 24 is the last days of this present world before the return of Jesus to rapture the church. A lost physical love can be a crushing experience to anyone. It often leads to lamenting and looking back and asking "what if?" Eventually, the pain becomes more manageable and someone else comes along that helps the healing process. A new love.
Does it work the same with a lost spiritual love? No, it does not.
A few weeks ago my Pastor mentioned to me, that in the current climate of the world it will be harder and harder to maintain our spiritual discipline and keep our eyes on the Lord.
That is what Satan wants and he seems to be getting.
Jesus offers the solution in the following verse (13) "But he that endures unto the end, the same shall be saved." With Spirit-given understanding, I can see two levels to this verse.
First, if I can endure this current season of uncertainty, drought and famine, God will save me from the hand of Satan.
Second, if I can endure the current climate and direction of this world which is leading many down the path of darkness and hell, I too shall be delivered (saved) from the wrath to come.
What can I do to come back to my first love? I first need to repent. God has been cast aside by me, in favor of people, books and other interests. Second, I need to recommit myself to God and His Word and allow His Holy Spirit to lead me daily.
It will not be easy. Satan has designs for me and not with good intentions. He desires that I walk away from my faith and destroy my relationship with God, trying to make void the work of the Cross of Calvary and the blood Jesus shed for me.
Let's go back to chorus above and the reason for this post. Def Leppard in the song never truly answers the question of Where does love go when it dies?
Where did my love go when it died? Nowhere, because the void within could only be filled by ONE person. And that person is the MOST HIGH GOD. I can find love and pleasure in this world, and for a time be happy. But will I be content? No.
My greatest satisfaction has always come from the Lord. Once, I realized I needed him. It is in those precious moments of fellowship and communion that I find my true worth and realize that according to Jeremiah 31:3 I truly am loved with an everlasting love.
If you ever feel as if you can never find love, just think about what kind of love are you looking for?
God's promises to me can also be for you.
God draws humanity to Himself with merciful love. A love that does not requiring anything in return. A love that is freely given.
In closing, Where does love go when it dies? For God, His love died on a Cross, was buried in a grave and rose again three days later. That same love is now seated on the right hand of the Father. Eternal love does not die. Take stock of your life and realize that God is all that we need. God is who and what we are looking for to fulfill that space we have within us that continually feels empty.
Monday, January 7, 2019
Of A Truth
For all the promises of God in Him are yes, and in Him Amen, unto the glory of God by us.
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