Something happened today that brought me low and I thank God for it. A customer was ready to check out and I was close by so I rang up her order. My attitude was not the most professional and she noticed it. N ( first initial of customer) asked me "how are you doing?" My answer was a short grunt. Strike one (me being selfish). Next, she seemed at a loss for words, not because of me, just distracted. Strike two (she is hurting and I don't catch on).
N and I start talking and she says her husband just passed away. I asked he how long were they married? N says "51 years." Amazing.
I offered my condolances and she starts crying. N apologizes for the tears and I said no problem. We spend a few minutes more talking and she has to go.
As she is walking away my heart breaks for her. N appears to shrinking under the weight of the grief she is going through.
I almost began to cry.
HOW!!! HOW could I have been so insensitive? So spiritually insensitive? Strike three (spiritual dross).
How far have I gone from The LORD?
N showed more care and concern for me than I did for her. I am such a...tool.
Instead of being a willing instrument of righteousness for God, I was a willing instrument of unrighteousness.
God forgive me.